Being ok with quiet.

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I haven’t posted since my husband and I have found out we are expecting a baby boy! I’m 8 1/2 months along and couldn’t be more humbled in this amazing experience that I have seen my body mold into. There’s been at least 1 million times where I saw something change or experienced something and thought to myself-huh I didn’t know that would do that! I feel like I’m a passenger in my own body which is NEVER something I’ve experienced before. I got into fitness because I tried to carry my groceries up my stairs and I struggled-legit single girl problems-and so I made a change. I got into yoga because I was stressed out so I solved that. But now, my body changes and I have NOTHING to do with it-it’s such an amazing experience! It’s just breath taking to see my body decide for my baby what HE needs and how it isn’t about me anymore. I’ve never been more proud of my body to see what it can do. For a while, I attributed it to my controllable variables of healthy eating and lifestyle but I realized there are things that even I don’t have control over.

I’ve found myself in moderate bed rest which at first, was super scary for someone like me who is always go, go, go and then go some more. If I had a few hours of available time, it would be filled with tasks, dinners, or anything I could possibly do to fill the time to be productive. I showed up to my last acupuncture appointment, which I can’t advocate enough for whether pregnant or not, and found out that my yin was deficient. So if you’re like me, you’re like um, ok, what’s that mean? It means that my woman hood part of my Qi is deficient. I’m pregnant and in my woman glory so how in the world is that off?! After I got some more knowledge on the topic-I realized I wasn’t accepting the surrendering part of my woman journey. I kept trying to keep the control of what my body was doing. I kept my long hours at school, picking up side tasks there, kept up my yoga practice, walked in the evenings, and didn’t really slow down because Stevie doesn’t slow down-she keeps going. My acupuncturist told me this part of pregnancy is all about allowing others to do for you and relax. I just laughed because Kevin had just gotten frustrated with me because I kept doing things around the house in front of him and he wanted to do for me since I was after all making a baby. It wasn’t pride-it was that I literally had no idea how to sit back and just let someone do something for me without feeling lazy and I live for doing things for others. I am in my happiest of times when I’m doing for others-hence why I became a teacher, I needed to give on a daily basis in order for myself to feel fulfilled. So to sit back and allow someone to do something for me is just so…foreign and uncomfortable. However, I have found myself slowing down now, because well a doctor said I had to, and I just couldn’t stop smiling about it because God has a funny way to humble me in my life when I need it the most. It’s good to be proven you are human and to let go of control. I’m about to be a mom in a month and I feel like now is a good time to realize this reality and to be calm in the quiet and humility of life. As much as I try to plan for this little guy to come into my world, it’s not my time. It’s going to be all about his time and to be able to give my life to someone on a daily is going to make me more happy than I even know. 🙂

Where’d franklyoils come from??

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Frankly oils.

I have thoroughly enjoyed infusing essential oils into my everyday as a means to my own holistic wellbeing. I started my oil journey nearly 2 years ago when I attended an essential oil party. I left the party feeling overwhelmed, confused, and thought they were too expensive for my teaching budget. And what’s with all the benefits? Can this be real or is this a hoaxy infomercial?! Can rubbing oil on my skin truly help me de-stress, put me in a better mood, or help me sleep better? Surprisingly to me-the answer was YES.

After burying myself in literature, videos, phone calls, and multiple recipes of oils I felt like I had a good grasp on what these essential oils were, how they worked, and more importantly how I could blend them together to create amazing blends that worked for me.

That’s when I realized-I wanted to make these oils easily and readily accessible for people who don’t want to put the time or money into adding these oils into their everyday. I came up with easy names for the oil blends so if someone was stressing, they knew to grab “Zen Out” or if they were having trouble with sleeping they’d grab “Sleeping Beauty.” Labeling my oil blends was one of the hardest feats to conquer because I wanted my friends to be able to know what the blend did in just a few short words.

So what are some oil blends that’s available at franklyoils?

Happy & Awake:

For those mornings when you need an extra boost of good mood vibes to get through the day, this blend will help awaken the spirit and help you keep in good vibes throughout the day. The boost of peppermint will help keep you alert.

Ingredients: All 100% natural essential oils of Lavandin, Lavender, Tangerine, Elemi, Lemon, Myrtle, Melissa, Ylang Ylang, Osmanthus, Peppermint, and Sandalwood. Wild Orange, Grapefruit, Mandarin, Bergamot, and Clementine with a drop of Vanilla

Sleeping Beauty: It’s time for that beautiful time to lay in your amazing sheets and you can’t stop tossing and turning. Mind racing. Planning out the next day or wrapping up the current day. Reach for your Sleeping Beauty at any time of night, even if you wake back up, to help send you back to catching some Zzz’s.

Ingredients: 100% essential oils of Lavender, Marjoram, Roman Chamomile, and Ylang Ylang, Ho wood, Frankincense, Blue Tansy Flower and Blue Chamomile Flower, and Vetiver.

 

Find franklyoils at any Invoke location. Catch up on new blends @ www.franklyoils.com OR follow me on Instagram: @franklyoils

i’m leading an essential flow class!

Join me for an intermediate/advanced class with focus on kidney loop (ways to incorporate the abdominal muscles in yoga practice) to help access handstand and crow pose.

All with the help of some essential oils to help invigorate you towards the beginning of class as well as specific oils to relax you for a dreamy savasana. You’ll be able to leave with samples of each blend so you can use these oils off your mat (Oils provides by @franklyoils).

Sign up here:
http://invokestudio.com/workshops
or just send me a message, and I’ll get ya figured out!

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are we there yet?

It was a beautiful service this Palm Sunday. There’s this member at our church that has memorized the passion and does a beautiful read every year on this particular day. He gets so passionate while he enacts the reading. His demeanor and emphasis on the reading is just….well it brings tears to my eyes every year. Hearing him yell, while staring at the crucifix, yelling, “Crucify him!” following what the sculpture reads, is just bone chilling. It got me to thinking-what I do in my life that brings me to cringe like that?

I’m such a perfectionist. My house is always clean, lesson plans always perfected, the week is planned out, the world makes sense as I make it. If something unexpected comes up, I’ll roll with it but if I make a mistake, oh like dropping my phone into some water or forgetting to claim certain amounts on my taxes, I take it to heart. It creates this unsettling feeling within myself that I could make a mistake. And it occurred to me-I’m human of course I’m going to make mistakes. Hearing the part of the reading where Jesus asked, “God why have you forsaken me?” lead me to realize that even the most of perfect human being can be lead astray.

I tend to lose sight of what’s important because  I’m so consumed with the “should haves” in life. Carrie Bradshaw coined this beautifully by saying “Why are we shoulding all over ourselves?” When can we just be happy in the skin we’re in or the situation we’re in? It’s ALWAYS got to be better or could be better. The grass is always greener on the other side. There  are so many catch phrases to this philosophy, and I hate it. We’re only given a certain amount of time here. No use in “burning the day away” on the missed opportunities but carpe diem!!

The only time it’s easy to not hold expectations and not hold judgements, is either on my mat or while traveling. When I’m on my mat I have enjoyed falling, I smile at myself after and accept the imperfections. Actually, I cannot tell you the last time I had a perfect practice from start to finish. I need to bring that concept off my mat and into my present for sure. Now onto travel, Kevin and I were just talking about what it was like the day we got married. That day held such a peace about it. There were no stressful situations, nowhere to really be, I just knew I had to start getting ready by 3 so I could be ready to walk by 5:00. My biggest concern was that I forgot to eat so I beasted a pizza in my wedding dress like 15 minutes before the “I do’s”. Why can’t everyday be my wedding day? 😉

So onto this whole “no makeup” journey-I’m ready for it to be over. I’ve looked around at church the past few Sundays and been like, “Man all these symbols of deserts…I totally get it now!” I don’t think I’ve ever chosen a sacrifice quite like this one before. I was quite amazed at how his journey effected others around me. I got some letters, some people started going without makeup more often, and many face-to-face praises about how brave I was. Shocking that this effort, that took no effort at all and saved a ton of time, could have such a lasting effect on not only myself but others.

It’s been such a looooong journey these last two weeks. I look forward to hiding the fact I’m not in a good mood. I look forward to hiding the fact I didn’t get much sleep the night before. I look forward to hiding….because not hiding, now that’s exhausting.  I’m ready for Easter and ready to celebrate the luxury of life with makeup once again. To play in the hues, bronzers, liquid liners, mascara, and concealer! Nice little highlighted areas and pink cheeks again. I’m totally a girl when it comes to those things.

So the next week will be the last leg of this journey. I’m curious as to how I’ll feel when I can glam back up and how often I’ll go without….perhaps the grass will be greener on the other side when I didn’t have to….

i can’t get dressed up.

I got some amazing new shoes. They’re open toed, comfy, 4 inch heel, black, and looks almost like a bootie but isn’t. Perfect. The husband and I were going out for dinner and I put them on with a cute top and was like-I can’t wear these. I just didn’t feel dressed up enough without the makeup. So I put my flats on and still-I had a great time but it got me thinking-why can’t I feel dressed up?

I don’t feel lack of confidence without my makeup which is a sort of a surprise. The first few days I felt judged and my face really did look…washed out. Truly the makeup was for everyone else because I am still…me. But when I want to look nice and dressy-I just can’t get there without the lipsticks and the eye liner. I had a dream last night that I accidentally cheated and wore eyeliner which got me thinking-am I cheating somehow? My face seems to be healthier looking than normal and almost dewy. I haven’t changed my regime with skin care but I do use some wicked awesome products (Lush-LOVE their exfoliater Angels on Bare Skin, the moisturizer Skin’s Shangri La, and the mask Oatifix. Given all those products are for sensitive and dry skin but they are AMAZING so check em out if you haven’t.) So I quickly realized I wasn’t secretly cheating myself. So what was I cheating? Was it womanhood?

I’ve been watching Kardashians (judge away) and man-you can’t watch that show without noticing some serious makeup. I found myself starting to want to play around in my own collection of hues. But then something funny happened, as I was binging eating girl scout cookies and watching an entire season on Sunday, all the girls went on a vacation. I realized how must PRETTIER they looked without the makeup on. When they were all done up sure it was pretty for a little while, but really while you’re sitting beach side??

I think I felt cheated because I couldn’t be all dressed up and look pretty for one night. It made me feel…ordinary. I like to wear makeup to help me look extraordinary sometimes. So the big question-do I miss it? I don’t miss washing it off. I don’t miss putting it on-I’m getting much more time with my husband and my dog in the morning now that I don’t have to put it on. I feel less stressed before bed. So I don’t really know. I know I’ll go back to makeup but for right now-standing in the present is pretty awesome.